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[Oct. 14th, 2009|09:29 pm] |
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im sick of only caring about boys who couldnt care less |
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[Sep. 29th, 2009|05:08 pm] |
its days like these that make me wanna just end it all.
but it sucks because i know tommorow ill wake up and do it all over again.
its not fucking worth it anymore so i dont know why i keep going on.
but if one more thing goes wrong...
PEACE. |
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[Sep. 14th, 2009|02:43 pm] |
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i need a new straighter. |
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[Aug. 18th, 2009|03:41 pm] |
i finally got a joooobbbbb!
so far im only working 4 days buuut there isnt one shift under 8 hours so i will be balllin pretty soon if all my shifts are like this.
i guess my new car should be here tommorow..so stoked.
i forgot what its even like to have a car or a phone.
i cant wait to have some money again. |
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[Aug. 17th, 2009|08:38 pm] |
So I left.
That is it.
That's my life.
Nothing is sacred.
I don't keep friends, I keep acquainted.
I'm not a prophet, but I'm here to profit.
That's all.
I'm gone.
That's my life.
Nothing is sacred.
I don't fall in love, I just fake it. |
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[Aug. 10th, 2009|09:14 pm] |
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GIVE ME A FUCKING JOB |
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[Jul. 29th, 2009|01:20 pm] |
but all there is to do is increase our bar tab and tell our
hearts that things really aren't bad and send our best to almost departed and
tell our arms that they'll just have to... |
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[Jul. 10th, 2009|10:07 pm] |
its kind of sad how much i try to avoid coming home now.
its like a bunch of strangers just living in a house together.
its nights like these that make me question alot of things.
i wish someone get me the fuck out of here
or maybe find a box of money so i can get myself out of here.now. |
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[Jul. 6th, 2009|06:55 pm] |
so i get home today and my mom has an entire roll of scratch offs that she won from some radio station and stupidly asked me to scratch them for her.
so i pocketed most of the winners and left her a few.
haha.
i also need to get out of this house so someone should come pick me up,
i will pay you with my winnings. |
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[Jul. 6th, 2009|12:02 am] |
oh man if something dosent change soon im going to go insane.
i cant keep doing the same shit every single day..
i need to stop drinking so much
get off my ass and get a job
fix my fucking car
get my phone turned back on
and somehow get some health insurance.
i wish it was as easy as it sounds but nothing ever fucking is. |
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[Jun. 24th, 2009|10:52 pm] |
i need a job more than anything.
someone hook that up for me. |
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[Jun. 3rd, 2009|02:05 pm] |
im glad that nothing seems to be going right lately.
my car finally shit the bed, plus someone broke the windows and stole my stereo.
ive gotten 7 tickets this past week and to top it all off...jon and kate are getting a divorce.
but at least i have roseanne re-runs and textsfromlastnight. |
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[Jan. 2nd, 2009|06:17 pm] |
I awoke, only to find my lungs empty
Through the night, so it seems I'm not breathing
And now my dreams are nothing like they were meant to be
And I'm Breaking Down
I think I'm breaking down
And I'm afraid to sleep because of what haunts me
Such as living with the uncertainties
That I'll never find the words to say
Which would completely explain
Just how I'm breaking down
Someone come, Someone come and save my life
Maybe I'll sleep when I am dead
But now its like the night is taking up sides
With all the worries that occupy the back of my mind
Could it be? This misery will suffice |
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[Nov. 6th, 2008|12:03 am] |
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Did you notice that during McCains speech when he mentioned Obamas name all his supporters started booing but when Obama made his speech and he mentioned McCains name people actually cheered for him? well didnt boo him at least. fuck them. |
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[Nov. 4th, 2008|03:23 pm] |
i always feel like im pretty well rounded
and then i look back on myself and say
man, i was a fucking idiot
which i guess means i am an idiot right now
i just wont realize it for a few months. |
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[Sep. 28th, 2008|12:26 am] |
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I live on coffee and bad excuses & I'm okay with it. |
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[Sep. 19th, 2008|03:48 pm] |
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Have you ever felt like you are wasting your
whole life searching for something you can't find? There's been so
much talk of so many slashed up wrists...but we're much too young to
be dwelling on thoughts like this. So scrape your heart up from the
bottom of the bottom of the barrel. Keep your faith in the path that's
growing narrow. Kill the doubt inside your head. We overcome. We push
ahead. |
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[Sep. 7th, 2008|11:10 am] |
Her life was magazines and faithful TV screens selling an empty dream
of cars and calories and everything in between the sun and Saturn's ring,
but the price tag can't be seen and it took bites out of her insides till she was just a hollow shell.
She grew up in east LA watching celebrities living out all of her dreams.
The plastic canopy of US royalty drew her gaze towards the sky and away from her own mind.
And it took bites out of her insides till she was just a hollow shell.
And at home her mother cried cause daddy had something on the side and they didn't look up when she sighed.
And when August came around, the bathing suits were on the ground replaced by a cotton cloak.
To see her own reflection was like squinting in the sun.
And when all tomorrow brings is a set of broken wings it takes bites out of your insides till you are just a hollow shell.
i just want to sleep forever |
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| ETHAN COCO GODDESS |
[Aug. 20th, 2008|12:56 am] |
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ive know this kid for a while but never really hung out with him as much as i have this summer.
We pretty much go to his house every night and get wasted, ive had some of the best nights of my life with the kid. i know im real good at pissing people off and im sorry for that but he puts up with it even though sometimes im sure he just wants to beat my face in. hes probably one of the nicest kids ive ever met. i cant believe hes leaving in 2 days. im going to miss all the drunken nights and playing wii in his basement for hours. im gonna miss turbo car and him singing opera songs at 4 in the morning on the way back from random trips to pennsylvania. im going to miss walking by pac sun and seeing his beautiful face in there folding girl clothes. im going to miss sitiing at that stupid table in his back yard and bitching about how theres nothing to do.
this is getting stupid, but the bottom line is i love the kid, and i hope he becomes a famous director and makes tons of money.
just dont forget about us.
love, rayna
ps. i know that im an asshole, just know i appreciate how good of a friend you've been to me and hope you have fun in cali. |
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